Karen’s Musings

Admitting our vulnerability, dare I say fear and feelings of inadequacy, is what opens the door to our healing.  Of this I am certain.  And yet, we all know folks who simply can't "go there."  And each of us has been one of those people in the past.  Maybe the very recent past, in fact.  There is no shame in that.  It's so very human of us to want to appear to be different than we really are, particularly if we think the stakes are high. And there is no shame in that either.  Being human isn't all that easy at times. I have talked about my emotional roll[...]

Nellie, our puppy, is getting both cuter and into more stuff as the days go by.  I sure wish I had had children.  I feel in the dark about so much of this training.  Everyone keeps saying it's like having a baby.  Well, never having had a child is a drawback, I can assure you.  But she and I are figuring it out.  One No! at a time.  One treat at a time. Raising a puppy is kind of like getting sober, I have decided.  You live in a place of doubt quite often.  You think you are grasping the first step, and the next thing you know, you are trying to contr[...]

A funk had settled over me.  I wasn't hopping out of bed with much enthusiasm.  The dread of old had settled in.  Again.  For how long this time, I wondered.  This experience isn't new.  It's a common theme for me, actually.  Sometimes it feels like I pay more than an occasional "visit" to this site.  I nestle in, in fact.  And then the fear of how long it will last creeps in. It wouldn't be such a big deal but it changes my behavior toward others.  Those I love the most become my central focus and placing them under the microscope doesn't add peace t[...]