How little I understood the concept of “letting go” when I first saw the slogan: Let Go, Let God, on the wall of an Al-Anon meeting nearly forty years ago. \u00a0It sounded so simple. \u00a0I didn’t consider myself “attached” to any one or any thing. \u00a0In reality, my feelings, thus often my actions, were attached to the behavior of everyone. \u00a0Absolutely everyone! \u00a0I was so enmeshed in who ever was present that I couldn’t even recognize it. \u00a0Whatever any one did or said had an impact on me. \u00a0And the closer they were to me, the greater the impact.<\/p>\n
I had been introduced to the idea of “detachment,” another way of explaining letting go, a few years before going to my first Al-Anon meeting in a book written by John Powell, a Jesuit Priest. \u00a0The book: Why Am I Afraid To Tell You Who I Am<\/strong><\/em>, caught my attention while I was teaching a course on personal writing at the University of Minnesota. \u00a0It was a perfect small text for that course. \u00a0It was also a perfect small text to teach me a very important lesson, one that I treasure even today.<\/p>\n Powell tells the story of his good friend in New York, a friend he often visited when he was in the area. \u00a0They took an early morning walk every day and Powell was struck by how friendly his friend was to others that he encountered. \u00a0He was particularly cordial to the newspaper vender he saw nearly every morning. \u00a0Powell, on the other hand, couldn’t help but notice how rude the vender was to his friend. \u00a0He finally asked him why he was so kind, even generously tipping, \u00a0such a rude man. \u00a0His friend said, “Why should I let him decide what kind of day I am going to have?”<\/p>\n I literally was stopped in my tracks when I read that. \u00a0Instantly I knew that I had let every person, in every instance in my life, define how I was going to feel. \u00a0And I had lived that way forever. \u00a0From that moment on I knew there was another way but I didn’t know how to practice that other way. \u00a0Going to Al-Anon was the beginning of another way.<\/p>\n I’m pleased to say that detaching from the actions of others is now like second nature. \u00a0With most people, that is. \u00a0I still get ensnared by some of “my teachers,” but being a work in progress isn’t all bad. \u00a0It means I still have a good reason for getting up every morning. \u00a0Letting others have their life, letting them reap whatever benefits or pinches they might deserve for their behavior, is what I must learn to celebrate. \u00a0Continuing to “orchestrate” situations simply isn’t my job. \u00a0 Not today. \u00a0Nor will it be my job any day in the near or distant future.<\/p>\n I am relieved that this is so. \u00a0I also have a built-in forgetter. \u00a0My primary teacher reminds me that my codependency hasn’t been “cured” yet. \u00a0Darn!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" How little I understood the concept of “letting go” when I first saw the slogan: Let Go, Let God, on the wall of an Al-Anon meeting nearly forty years ago. \u00a0It sounded so simple. \u00a0I didn’t consider myself “attached” to any one or any thing. \u00a0In reality, my feelings, thus often my actions, were attached […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[4,15],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3414","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-circle-of-family-and-friends-you-and-your-personal-community","category-your-experience-strength-and-hope"],"yoast_head":"\n